Mid-Terms

Mid-term is officially over. Stress is reduced, but not gone. How did I do?? Some of my grades have come back and they are way better than I thought!! Woo hoo! Still waiting for others.

It is so hard to not want an A in every class! It's an expectation I set for myself when I saw that I could do it. Then it was the bar that was set. I have become wildly disappointed when my grades slip. Even though I'm doing my best. After all, isn't that what's important? I study hard and I try hard. I work harder at school than I do anywhere else because the achievement is so rewarding. I love it when I walk in and take a test and know the answers. Even then, I will look at all of the questions a second time and make sure that I have chosen the best answer. Looking at the questions again are key.

The elusive A. The elite of the elite. In the end, it doesn't matter all that much. Everyone I talk to about their GPA says: No one in an interview has ever asked me what my GPA was. It's mostly for grad students. So why does it feel so important?? The only one I am competing with is me. Perhaps it is a tool I use by which to measure myself against the person I used to be. In high school. 25 years ago. Now really, who am I trying to measure up to? This person has grown and and has learned the hard way that hard work pays off. When you put in the time, you will get your just rewards. That other person was bored with the education system and simply wanted to spend time with friends, hang out and just generally do nothing. Really, I'm glad I'm not her anymore.

Any yet, there are only 8 more weeks of school!!

Update: the results are in, so far, I am averaging a high B for this semester!! It can still be an A!